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There is a train

I think a good example of how your emotions color your experiences came to me today.

There is a train that passes by my apartment at least twice a day. This afternoon, I left and heard the sound of the train passing. It was so sweet. It made me think that I always wanted to be near a train track, so I could hear the noise. The soft call reminding me I am home.

But tonight it is different. I have stayed up later than I should and instead of loving the sound, it brings me to tears. It sounds like it is leaving me behind. I am tired of being behind everyone else. I want to be normal.

I was happy today, I was successful, but now I am sad.

I think it is time to go to bed.

Books: a goal

One of my goals this year is to read more and write more so hopefully this will help me out some doing both.

Relentless by Bailey Bradford
http://www.total-e-bound.com/product.asp?strParents=&CAT_ID=&P_ID=944

This is a shifter romance, where one of the men has to get over some serious family and personal history.

While I enjoyed it while I read it I think this one I will not keep. I was just too familiar with its story telling and not enough emotional grip to it for me to want to read it again.

Bodyguards in Love: To Bed a King by Carol Lynne
http://www.total-e-bound.com/product.asp?strParents=&CAT_ID=&P_ID=908

Like most of her books in this series it is about the Bodyguard falling in love with his client.

While I never keep any of her books I end up buying most of the just because they are kinda like popcorn, fun while you are eating it but doesn't stay with you much.

VID: Where they live....

Fandom: The Crazies

I made this because I really enjoyed that there were two monsters in the movie, the crazies and then containment by the military.


Day 01 - A show that should have never been canceled

I wish I could say Firefly, but I didn't get into the show until after it was canceled. I tend to not enjoy the first season of any of Joss Whedon's shows until after the first season. But I think the correct answer is, Poltergeist: the Legacy. I loved this show so much, I followed it from the movie channel to Scifi. This was back when Scifi was the savior to all dying but fan favorited science fiction shows. I don't think they really gave this one that fair of a second chance. This was one of the first show that made me want to storm the studios after it got canceled. Unfortunately it doesn't hold up for me in reruns. But for middle school me, this show's cancelation was devastating. No more ex-navy seal Nick or ghost hunting Irish priests.

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Wow

I try to be understanding of other people's opinions but sometimes I fail.

Someone on my facebook friend list just joined the group: DEAR LORD, THIS YEAR YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE ACTOR, PATRICK SWAYZIE. YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE ACTRESS, FARAH FAWCETT. YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE SINGER, MICHAEL JACKSON. I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW, MY FAVORITE PRESIDENT IS BARACK OBAMA. AMEN.

I, do not find that funny. I maybe have hated Bush with a fiery passion but I never ever wished him dead. That is horrible.

*steps down off soapbox*
so....... I guess I stiffel sadness until it overflows. I am drowning tonight. I wish that I was braver. But that is not the case. So I guess this is what I have until I change it.

fantasy only lasts until you awake to reality.

Fall TV Schedule for me

M:
7pm How I Met Your Mother (CBS) 9/21
8pm Trauma (NBC)

T:
7pm NCIS (CBS)

W:
7pm ANTM (CW) 9/09
8pm Criminal Minds (CBS) 9/23

Th:
7pm Bones (Fox)9/17 / Flashforward DVR (ABC) 9/24
8pm Supernatural (CW) 9/10 / Grey's Anatomy DVR (ABC) 9/24
9pm Mentalist (CBS) 9/24

F:
7pm Law and Order (NBC) 9/25
8pm Southland (NBC) 10/23/Dollhouse DVR (FOX) 9/25

Mid Season Shows:
Better off Ted
Chuck March 2010
Life Unexpected

True Blood

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personal life toegazing

Sometimes I feel that I am stuck in that space of being only okay with my life. I like my job, I love my coworkers, I fear my boss, and I want to leave the town I live in.

Am I just not trying hard enough to be content with the life that I currently have? Have I bought into all of the hoopla that one day I will be somewhere that will just click and suddenly I will want to dance my way threw everything I do?

Blah. Onward and upward.